The Day I Will Meet the Right Guy
i’ll meet the right guy for me during the saddest and loneliest moment in my life. this i am sure of because i know that i am the truest person as of that moment.
i have no guts to laugh and make other people laugh. i have no other choice but to cry in front of him. i can’t sing lady marmalade anymore just to lift my hopes up. i can’t dance to the beat of dancing queen just to make me feel contended. i won’t be able to throw even the lamest punch line. i won’t have the confidence to say my favorite pick-up line. i can’t curse anyone. i can’t lie. i can’t pretend anymore. i can’t think of happy thoughts. i can’t invent a story that could make me grin.
i don’t know anything about him until that moment for if knew him, i have already stalked him and probably know where he should be during that specific time. i haven’t heard him laugh. haven’t seen him frown. haven’t been with him. haven’t been together in a jeepney. haven’t sat beside him in a bus. haven’t teased him. haven’t followed him in a hallway. haven’t eaten with him. haven’t stared at his eyes. all that could occur is that we have been under the same sky, other than that, it’s impossible.
i can’t offer him anything as of that moment. just myself. and i believe i won’t be able to internalize everything that he will do during that time. it will be a very different experience that day for the both of us. for i will not be the way i normally am.
i will treasure that moment till the day i die. it will never happen again unless he leaves me and bids goodbye to this world which again will never happen because he will never ever, not even think of it, leave me. he will always protect me no matter what. risk his life for me. save me when people are torturing me. give me courage when i don’t have the strength to face my problems. take care of me always. forgive me for my mistakes. accept my imperfections. understand me when i am immature. comfort me when i am in a bad condition. and love me like i am the best woman he has ever met. love me like i haven’t made a single sin for me to be loved that way.
we will eat together. watch movies together. be crazy together. commit crimes together. laugh together. sing together. dance together. sleep together. pray together. cry together. we will be happy together. we will never be sad, simply because we have each other.
it will never be a perfect relationship. the most imperfect yet the sweetest.
we are made for each other and perfect to be together.
it’s all a matter of time. and i promise that after the first day that we are together, i shall make him read this, yes i will print a copy of this one, and we will look at each other like it is the only way we can communicate. no words. just pure emotions. and we shall be the happiest couple from then on.